Thursday I walked around the park and saw some beautiful blossom. It reminded me of the beauty of spring that has been lost amongst so much focus on the coronavirus. Friday it was my birthday. Twenty-nine. One year away from thirty. Josh and I lay in bed late watching cute animal videos, cocooned in the safety of the duvet. After food, we went for a fifty minute walk past farms and sheep and flowers, and when we got home I baked the most delicious batch of dark, gooey brownies. When we first stepped outside my front door I saw posters stuck to the wooden polls outside our flats and it turns out it was one of my neighbour’s birthday too and his family had made birthday posters for him. As I didn’t know who he was, I added a birthday banner and wrote note saying it was also my birthday and stuck it onto the polls. When we came back from our walk there was a post-it note saying happy birthday to me added to my note.
After dinner I persuaded Josh to watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and after he realised it was directed by Joss Whedon he was more interested (although why he wasn’t in the first place is beyond me…). In the evening, we had an amazing Zoom call with seven of my mates and my brother. I didn’t even realise how much I missed seeing them until they were all there in front of me.
Yesterday felt aimless. We were restless, and bored. We couldn’t think of anything we really wanted to do. So we scrolled through our phones and didn’t really do much of anything for a few hours. I persuaded Josh to come out for a walk and we noticed all of the rainbows in so many windows. It is nice to see so many people getting involved and showing community spirit. We have watched so many Marvel movies now, and we ended the night with Avengers: Endgame, which – apart from the fatphobic jokes – was a really good film.
Today was a beautiful day. It was the warmest day so far this year, and walking in it was one hand, lovely, but on the other hand, it was so sad to know that we couldn’t sit in the park and enjoy it, or go to a beer garden and have a cold beverage and a catch up with some friends. It astounds me how many people are still not taking this virus seriously; who are having picnics in the park; who are letting their kids play with other kids; who are meeting friends and family from other households; who are sunbathing; who are congregating in groups with their mates. People ripping off the red tape from park benches and tables in order to sit down and touch them and then for other people to sit on them after and touch them, and on and on until all the idiots have touched the same spot and if one person has COVID-19 then they will all have it. It seems inevitable that soon we will end up with a full lockdown because a selfish minority of people just can’t follow the necessary and reasonable safety measures that have been put in place. All of our mental health will suffer when we can’t go outside at all, but it seems almost inevitable that it will happen with the way things are going right now.
I’ve started doing pilates in order to build up some strength back into my body and doing more focused work outs feels good, however, I know I only have this energy to spare because of currently not working and sitting on my butt the rest of the day. ME will catch up with me if I’m doing this AND working, but for now at least, it feels good. A cold bevvy and watching a movie this evening. It’s not an unpleasant way to spend your day, but it’s a bit monotonous. I’m sure it will be the same again the next day, and the next day, and the next day, and the next day and the next day and -. Just gotta make the most of the situation I suppose. Stay positive people!